An October Day
Here it is October 2006. I think it's going to be a tough month to get through. I seem to be thinking of Cathy all the time. I don't think a day has gone by this past year that I haven't thought about her, but lately I am reminded of her many times a day. We shared such wonderful times together. I try to keep busy which gives me less time to feel lonely and sorry for myself. I have found that walking really helps to pass the time and it doesn't hurt weight loss either. I have never been one to write, but for some reason I just feel like putting my thoughts down about Cathy helps me to deal with the loss. I reread the blogs on this site and realize I am the only one still blogging... so maybe that is why I feel so comfortable doing it. I still haven't figured out how to do paragraphs. I have so much to be thankful for.. my wonderful family, my children, their spouses and my grandchildren. I don't know how I would have gotten though this past year without them. I can only say that now I will continue to do what the plaque Chelle gave me says, ".......You can do what she'd want: Smile, Open Your Eyes, Love and Go On." I don't think I like October very much. My brother, Leo, passed away in October (10/10/97) so I feel like I lost both a brother and a sister in October. I know they both knew how much I cared about them, so that makes me feel better. Enough sadness, I will now get on with my life. I have to get ready to go to my Wednesday night Bible Study Group. Thanks to Cathy's strong faith, I have found my way back to the Lord.
posted by jo-ann at 4:36 PM
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October has always been my favorite month. Yet this one has been sad. I have thought of Cathy everyday for the past few weeks, knowing that October was almost here. I see the leaves changing on the few new trees that were recently planted on melrose and I can't help but think of Freddie the leaf. I miss her, too.
Well, here it is a January day. I just couldn't sleep. I kept thinking of Cathy. When I looked at the calendar, I think I figured out why. January 4th, 2001 was the night of her surgery. So, in the early hours of the 5th, I was waiting to know the outcome.
I count my blessings for the years that she was in my life. I will never forget her. I thank the Lord for her influence in my life. Because of her, I have found my way back to God. One might think that after losing your best friend you might be angry with God, but that is not the case. I am so thankful for the years he gave us together. Knowing how strong her faith was and the fact that she really didn't fear the unknown has helped me in so many ways. I know in my heart that she was put on this earth to watch over me and Kenneth Michael. I am sure she is still doing just that. I hope to some day be able to talk with Kenny about how much he means to me and to Cathy. He was (and is) the light of my life (and hers). Whenever I get sad, I think of all the joy my children and grandchildren bring to me. Family is everything and I am so lucky that my children love me. I wasn't the best mother when they were little, but as Chelle knows and Rodney will soon find out, there is no instruction manual on raising children and you do the best you can..
Here it is Saturday and I have so much to do, like file my tax returns, but for some reason I thought of Cathy and this blog site.
When I get a little stressed, I often think of her. She will always be my best friend and crazy as it may sound, I still talk to her and try to think what she would tell me to do.
With the closing of Wickes, it seems like another chapter in my life is coming to an end. Because of Cathy, I will look at it as a new adventure (& new beginnig) instead of the loss of something familar..
Spring is just around the corner and soon summer will be here. Then it will be June and Kenny will graduate. I will be there and I know that Cathy will be with us. Little did we know that when we attended his Kindergarden graduation before leaving for Oregon, that only one of us would be alive for his High School Graduation. I know that she has been watching over him and God has answered my prayers, that he would realize the importance of a good education and good grades.
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